Sometimes You Just Need A Cookie

Greg's Philosophy

We all have thought it. Everyone wishes at least once in their life, that they could watch someone without them knowing we were watching. There are various reasons for this, you either want to see what they REALLY think about you, or how they act when you aren't there, etc. But the other night, I was talking to Ashley. I said to her, "Have you ever wished that others could watch you without you knowing." It's somewhat common for other people to wish they could watch you, but what if you WANT them to see you. Now you may be like, "No, I don't want people watching me, that's weird." But for all you bloggers out there, what do you think you are doing. You are technically putting your journal, your stories, your life, online for the world to see, you don't know who is reading it, anyone could. Now you see what I'm getting at? Well let me explain it better.

I thought about this when I was at work, stocking shelves. Now honestly, no one wants to waste their time watching that, (Your not missing much) but I'm basically speaking from a boyfriends point of view. (Just replace girlfriend/boyfriend to relate this to you) Have you ever caught yourself doing something that you KNOW would make your girlfriend smile, but the only catch is your girlfriend is nowhere near you. You know, that something that you "only do for her", but she will never see it. Now don't you wish that she could see that. The best example I can give you is something that happened tonight. I was driving home from work. It was a very stressful day, and I wanted to listen to MY music to cheer me up. You know, some AC/DC, Foo Fighters, Guns N' Roses, Ozzy Osbourne. Basically anything that rocked and really cheered me up. Well after going through all my stations, I found nothing. Then, without thinking (or trying to impress anyone) I did something strange. I went out of my way to find Country 99.5, and somehow Ashley rewarded me for this, because I heard one of the best songs....EVER!! It was amazing, just what I needed to take my mind off the day, but....what the hell was it? I had never heard it in my life, but it was AWESOME! So I arrived at my house and I parked the car and turned it off, but kept the radio on. And I sat there trying to figure out who/what it was. Well when I heard the chorus, I knew it was a band. Lonestar first came to mind. The lead singer sounded familiar, but after trying to remember how Lonestar sings something shot into my mind. RASCAL FLATTS!! It was them, I knew it! Now I just needed the title. *Side Note - How awful/amazing is it that we can usually tell the name of the song by whatever phrase the band repeats most* Well after hearing Fast Cars and Freedom twice, I had my title. After looking it up and listening to the twenty second clip on iTunes about 30 times, Ashley appeared out of nowhere! (ironic huh. And she wasn't even supposed to be home until tomorrow.) Well after telling her my story, I had the song on my computer within seconds.

So now Ashley knows that I willingly put on a country station, but she would have never known that, if I didn't asked her for the song. Now I could be making all this up and acting like I love this song, but why would I. Would I listen to a country song just to earn a few bonus point with Ashley, I could, but I'm not. I legit LOVE this song. But now here is my point. Wouldn't it be amazing if I did that, and Ashley was watching and she saw that I listened to a country station at my own will, and not "just because" she was there. I think that would be awesome! I guess my real point is that I wish significant others could see how each other acts when they are apart. Example: Ashley could see how the "Real Greg" matches up with the "BF Greg". Then she could see that I don't do things just to earn bonus points with her. (Editor's Note: Ashley has in no way made me feel this way, she has done nothing wrong, I am just using our names here to make it easy to understand.) But as I was typing this, I realized something else. Sometimes "BF Greg" is the "Real Greg". The two personas sometimes merge into one, and they differ slightly, but the core is the same. Like I will do cutesy things with ashley that I wouldn't do with my friends, but I will also do more guy like stuff with my friends that I wouldn't do with ashley. But the Core is GREG. And that will never change.

Another story that Ashley would never know unless I told her. I was at the Weymouth Fireworks on Sunday the 3rd. Me, Pete and Maria were standing around at the "Fair-like" section of the beach. There were a couple of small rides, nothing big, but off in the distance I heard something. My attention for whatever I was doing was lost. And I found myself running across a parking lot because I thought I heard something. I ran towards the music stage where local bands play every year. As I got closer, my thoughts were confirmed. The band was playing "Hey Good Lookin'" And I ran straight up to the stage...and sang along. Now Ashley would have never know this if I didn't call her cell and put the phone up to the speakers for her to hear. See? Wouldn't it be awesome to see ALL the cutesy stuff that you do even though you probly wont be "rewarded" for them. (Of course we would have to set up some rules, no peeping toms allowed.)

It is very interesting to see how having a girlfriend changes you. Before going out with Ashley, I hated country. Well not hated, because there was no reason to hate it, I just didn't like it. When people would ask me what kind of music I liked, I would say, Everything, except Classical and Country. But now, after giving country music a chance, I kinda like it. I'm not officially a fan yet, but I like Big and Rich, Lonestar, and now, Rascal Flatts. I am slowly discovering that all country isn't bad, but some of it is. I'll never forget my brother's reaction when I was playing GTA: San Andreas and I was listening to the country station and he goes, "why are you listening to that crap", and I snapped back, "because I like it!" He was ready to kick my ass for saying that. (another moment that ashley would never know about unless I told her. See how this would come in handy.) But here I am, typing, and listening to the very song (for the 12th time in a row) that inspired this rant, with Lonestar tickets next to me that I bought for Ashley. But I didn't do this for her, I just did it period. Why? Well.... I think it's because....I'm ready to say it. If I like this song this much, I think I have to.....





I am a Country Music Fan.

There I said it, I admit it. I have officially added country music to my preferences. Once again, I am not doing this to earn bonus points, life too short to pretend to do anything just to get rewards. I am a country music fan. I'm still learning, but I like what I've heard so far. So this also somewhat proves my point that "BF Greg" and "Real Greg" have officially merged. If "Real Greg" can accept country music into his life, then my personas have clearly merged into one. So here is my promise to everyone. Do you want to see the real me, see me when your not there, when I don't know your watching? Well you can, just come and stand next to me. I will always be the same person, maybe with a few slight differences, but the Core Greg will never change.

Well that concludes Philosophy 101, please read chapters 23-25 for next class.

Keep On Rocking In the Free World.

posted by Greg @ 1:36 AM